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Mango sticky rice with rum, raisins, and shredded coconut aanndd Buckwheat carrot muffins with Greek yogurt icing.  Sounds weird, looks odd (buckwheat just looks like dirt, doesn't it?  No avoiding it), tastes... [not bad meme], I promise.
I devoured bunches of the buckwheat muffins with the notion that it was more healthful than just not eating muffins at all.  Therein lies the problem.

Chit chat.  My life's a mess.  Staring down the barrel of another soap opera.  Ability to deal: 0/100.  Un-amused, unsure, uncomfortable.  Hi, my name's Amelia and "A" is for "avoid, avoid, avoid."  So I'm maybe a little bit oversensitive, but being detached from it all is probably good for me.  Officially mentally ready to give up this career path to leave this coast if it comes down to it (please come down to it).  Have you ever thought about how many people would remain important in your life if you didn't see them everyday?  This is not necessarily the issue; my issue is how many people would I remain important to if they weren't forced to see me everyday?  Playlist on repeat: Roar, Brave, Wake Me Up; the irony is somewhat clear to me.  I won't go back to before that time, I won't go back to before that time, I won't go back to before that time, I won't go back to before that time...I haven't painfully missed her in so long, I was doing so well, I was so fine, I thought I was...oh, fuck this shit.